Why I resent carefree people

I'm the opposite of a carefree person.  I stress about making appointments, schedule everything in my calendar with 2 alerts that go off the day before and 2 hours before, I think about bills before it's time for bills, my house constantly has to be clean or picked up or I am currently in the middle of doing it, I worry about other's feelings and how what I say may make them react or feel, I worry if I'm doing enough with the time I have, I worry about how physically active I've been each day, I calorie count all of my meals and compare them to my workouts to make sure I haven't gone over, I make sure my child is always taken care of as best as possible, I can't even watch tv or hardly sit at home when my son is awake out of guilt that I'm wasting time with him, I can't sit at home for a whole day or I feel depressed and useless, I plan what I will make for dinner each night before I go to the grocery store and write it down, I manage my own money for my career weekly, and add up each day and week how much I've made vs how much I've spent, I clean the clutter out of my car daily, make time for dates/play dates with at least 3 friends each week to keep in touch and keep our children close, I put on makeup and do my hair every day, and make sure the cat is always taken care of and fed.  It feels like there's not a moment that goes by that I am not worrying or stressing about my family's financial safety, health, and happiness.  Just today, I said out loud that my goals in life are to be a great loving mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend...but it's not as simple as it sounds.  Even though I try to keep everything in my life perfect and try to be perfect in every single thing I do, I always fall short.  I put so much effort into my life, and it is honestly exhausting, but I don't know any other way of how to live.  I guess God made people like me to counteract the people who don't care about much, who's only concern is if they showered that day and made it to work.  I've known many people who make horrible decisions that they know at the time isn't smart, but someone will be there to clean up their mess when it's over, so they smile and go through with it anyways.  I don't understand how someone could have someone there to clean up their mess...I don't feel like I've ever felt this luxury before.  Even if I had, how can they be so confident that someone will always be there?  How do they never think about the consequences of what will happen when they have to clean up their own mess?  Some never do, and always get away with it.  Well, I'm tired of being the other person, or maybe I'm tired of all of the carefree people in the world.  I haven't quite yet decided.  Is it selfishness behind all of their actions?  Or is it me?  Am I the one who cares TOO much?  I feel like people who are like me, tend to be constantly put up to a higher standard.  I, personally, am tired of being told "be the bigger person" in every situation, just because it is expected of me.  If I could physically and mentally handle it, I would love to go on a cleaning strike, being polite strike, making appointments strike, eating healthy strike, working out strike, working hard strike, and giving a shit about you at all strike...but the one thing I never regret is putting my all into being the best mom I can be.  That's my world now, among all of the craziness, sadness, and unfairness put my way sometimes, that's my daily joy.  Maybe if I was more of a carefree person, I wouldn't be as good of a mom.  Maybe that's why it's all worth it.